Cyclical nature

Much of the problems prevalent to western culture come from the discrepancy of how we measure time (linear) and how nature is (cyclical). The orders of linear time, as have been so rigorously established in the west, require our cyclical nature to succumb, resulting in severe friction in our systems and consequently – symptoms such as depression, anxiety and hormonal disbalances.

In other words, we were not designed to operate in a way modern society requires us to. This relates especially to women. Our systems operate in cycles – be it in the Life / Death / Life nature of our psyche or in the four phases of our Moon cycle – the same principle guides the way we think, feel, create and operate. Honoring that is a path to restoring our being and realizing our full potential.

I come from a high-profile corporate job that is all about productivity, delivery and deadlines – I used to work 16h per day and most weekends. In our culture, this is a path to career success, and there is no place for bad days, unproductivity or even your Moon cycle. You are required to show up every day to the task, regardless of how you feel, and constantly exceed some one else’s expectations. However, this way of operating is completely out of line with our cyclical nature, what will take a toll on your health eventually.

The toll I paid for forcing myself to fit into such imposed way of operating was Hashimoto thyroiditis, weekly migraines and irregular cycles. It wasn’t until I became a mother, that I finally stopped to observe and listen to my intrinsic cyclical nature.

So what it is about? First of all, whole universe operates in elliptical, repeating patterns. Planets circle the Sun, Sun orbits around the center of the galaxy. Other planetary bodies also follow highly elliptical orbits. Earth’s nature transforms through seasonal changes. Women’s moon cycles mimic the similar pattern:

spring / maiden / follicular phase

summer / mother / ovulatory phase

autumn / witch (wild women / luteal phase

winter / sage (wise women) / menstrual phase.

However, maybe the most interesting cyclical manifestation comes in the form of Life / Death / Life principle that governs human psyche (ouroboros). Every act of creation is first an act of destruction. And this creation destruction paradox is the foreground of any personal transformation, where old ideas are destroyed in service of the new news, where our unconscious projects archetypes to destroy conscious mind’s unhealthy ideologies.

As humans, we are often conditioned to fear destruction, to reject darker parts of the cycle. We fear our relationships to end. We fear our projects will fall through. We condemn rest as unproductivity. We cannot sit in silence. We cannot bear the thought of death.

To resist the darker, passive, destructive parts is to deny the essence of the cyclical nature. Creation and destruction are just different sides of the same coin. Embracing both sides and understanding their paradoxical relationship paws the way to a healthy psyche, to a healthy life.

In the unity and synthesis, both sides eventually strengthen and support each other, leading to a state of equilibrium. It is in this equilibrium where transformation occurs, as we become more susceptible to the space in between creation and destruction. This space in between is the space from which both have emerged and both will return to, the space where the coin of the cyclical duality has been forged and will again melt to the basic substances of consciousness.

Eclipse me

This eclipse, I personally feel like I want to explode with creation. I feel my being supercharging, wanting to burst open with all kind of supradelicfunkalicious stuff – planetary dust, sea shells, mandrakes, wild flowers, octopuses and all sorts of abstract assortments. I want to start as a wild horse roaming free, tune into one life episode of Charlie the unicorn and finish sipping mandrake root afternoon tea on a porch in Alabama while writing some poetry (see below below).

It is quite intense. Whatever it brings out – it is usually exactly what you need (to face). As a wise man once said: “Courage is not the absence of fear, but action in spite of it.'”

Dear Moon
Call out my wildness
Let me taste its fullness
Teach me how to let go
Sit back and enjoy the show
Let me just be
I promise to roam free

Welcome!

Hello! I have created this website on 11 May 2021, during the dark of the moon. There is a tradition long established among those who know, where the energy of the moon is intentionally used to support our projects and intentions. Under the new moon, we are cosmically supported in setting intentions and creating new projects. 

The energies related to this particular new moon are those of beauty, fertility and abundance – exactly what I envision this space to be about. I have decided to hold this virtual space in order to express some of my creations, as well as to invite and support anyone who resonates with my offering  to the world. 

Here you will find some of my thoughts and insights on yoga, energetics, motherhood, the (super mario) game of life, as well as some of my creations: dancing, stories and poems. You are welcomed to join me in this space and explore the guidance that is here offered. As a wise man once said – All in good time.